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Ellen F.

Rain falls upon the rooftop of the small shack
This is my new found home
I sit beside my window
Nothing has changed in the twenty years I have been here
I once thought I was happy
That nothing could bring my spirits down
That nothing could go wrong
But I soon learned my lesson
I was such a naive girl
Hopelessly in love
Blinded in one eye by the reality going on around me
I was living in my own fantasy world
A world where nothing bad happened
For a while that was reality
I had always gotten everything I wanted
You could say I was spoiled growing up
I would not take it offensively
In your eyes
That may be how it appeared
I was the girl that had only the best things given to me
Coach bags stuffed in the corner of my room
Used maybe once
Expensive jewelry that had never been worn stashed away
Hidden in a box and stuffed in the farthest corner of my closet
Why?
I did not need these things
These items were a joke
In my eyes money soon appeared to me like poison
After that unfortunate event
Nothing would make me want to touch money again
I was used
Moved around and played with
Just like a pawn on a game board
I thought he loved me for me
Everyone said we were perfect for each other
And then one day my family lost it all
All of our ancestors his hard work was in vain
We lost the money in an unfortunate circumstance
Let’s just say that was the end of my perfect relationship
My life was coming apart
I had ended up the beautiful and expensive jewelry stashed away from the light and hidden away in the farthest corner
The day he ended it and broke our relationship
He broke a lot more than that
He had been the only man to truly break my heart
That scene has haunted me every night
Playing in my mind as if it happened yesterday
I wonder where he is now
Probably off somewhere with a rich wife and kids
It pains me that he left me
What did I do wrong?
I know I should let go
But a place in my heart will always be reserved for him
Even if it is filled with painful memories